Recent Headlines on the Drudge Report: Afghan president wants U.S. troops out of villages...U.S. moves massacre soldier to Kuwait; Afghans furious...Thousands protest, chant anti-American slogans...Taliban suspends peace talks with U.S....Obama Fills Out NCAA Basketball Bracket... Yep. The Country is in the very best of hands. The war in Afghanistan is going to hell in a handbasket. The
Sometimes, i don't think i have a problem. Not when i see the girls at school comparing how much their spine sticks out, i feel just normal. But then i realise that it isn't possibly normal to have anxiety attacks about eating a small amount of food. Once i've ate, i can honestly feel the calories turing in to glyceral, holding on to my muscles, my bones burying me deep into some hole of fatness. It scares me so much, my heart starts to pound, tears start to fall. Next thing i'm on the ground doing 100 sit-ups because it is the only way i know how to get the feeling to go away, or purging. I guess i could self harm but that doesn't make any difference to the fat on my body, it's just punishment. I deserve punishment for being to weak. Weakness should be my new name. I can't seem to resist that calorific chocolate, or those salty peanuts. That is it, i can't deal with the anxiety. I completly give up with food. It is not enjoyable. Today was the closed i ...
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