I binged so much today, like so much that I don't think I stopped eating for about 2 hours. Why does it always seem okay at the time. There is no way I will be able to burn off the amount of calories that I have consumed today. Omg I will have gained so much... I'm such a weak piece of shit I need to gain control! What the fuck is wrong with me!

I am going to be 'ill' tomorrow well to my family anyways because I am fasting! My sister Is I'll so I can just 'catch' it off her.

I haven't purged yet, I want to though, more than ever....

Bekah
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